So I'm in therapy now, you know. Working on some things. Given that I am high-strung and pessimistic by nature, we're trying to lower my base level of OH MY GOD WE'RE ALL GOING TO DIE!!!1!!1!!11!!! and raise my base level of Everything Is Awesome! <3 kittens !1 rainbows! so that when little disasters hit (my grandpa is in the hospital! my kid is a full week behind on homework!)(these are things I found out today!) I don't go off the deep end and start looking for ways to fake my own death or whatever.
So far? NOT GOING WELL.
I'll keep you posted.